Because we understand each other

Feels good to be good

When out with my dear friend R and his friend L, had a wonderful night. We didn't drink since they both are now sober. We had a meal at Crudessence, a vegan restaurant. After L and I went to a CA meeting. It was a interesting experience. I never been to such a meeting and it was nice to see and hear it with my own senses. I would go again not that I need to but just to join my friends and put a bit of happiness in the whole thing. It was very grey and dark still. Some of the participants were so young !

The girls had a sleepover at a friend's house. So I came home alone. The night was gorgeous. The trees were full of snow. It was surreal. I didn't stop at the SAQ to get wine. I just went home and enjoy the silence.

Feels good to be good !

Strange movement of life

Over the years I met people, lots of people, lots of boys, no men. Among those boys, some i don't remember the faces or the names, some I din't even remember the days afterward, but some, few, very few, maybe just one , remained in the depth of my soul. There was this boy, this little bad boy I encountered centuries ago, a light in my solitude. We touched and then with lost contact for many years. The last time I saw him was by coincidence on a bus, I was pregnant with my first baby. He said: I see you're pregnant with your dream child. and those words stayed in my mind because they were so typically him. He knew more then any others my wish to have a daughter. I don't know if he recalls but he even proposed to father my child at the time. One night, I was so high that I collapsed on the dance floor. The bouncers picked me up and put me on those big speakers. When I finally recovered my senses, he said he freaked out, he thought I died, I answered: how could I die, I didn't have my kid yet. So that were the times.

Last friday, I had this urge inside of me to see Forrest Gump with my girls. But somehow for a weird reason, Forrest Gump became The world according to Garp in my mind. So I went to the video store to ask for The World according to Garp thinking I was asking for Forrest Gump. They didn't have it, they could have it only on monday. Since I'm a very impatient person and I had this urge and I couldn't wait until monday, I called La Boîte Noire for the movie. The person told me they had it on Mont-Royal and on Laurier. I usually go on Mont-Royal but I thought that Laurier was closer to me, since I live in Westmount. I had an errance to do before, I said I would be there within an hour. At la Boîte Noire, since it's not so close to me, I decided to see if they were other movies I could rent so I went down stairs. I thought of All That Jazz, they had it. When I was about to go, this young man stood in front of me, there he was, after all those years. I was in schock and him to. He told me I hadn't change which is sweet but I doubt. He aged in a beautiful way. So we went up the stairs together still amazed of our encounter, I picked up my movie at the counter and it is only when I saw Robin William on the cover that I realized my mistake. The thing is if I didn't make that mistake, we would never have seen each other again. They had Forrest Gump at my video store.

Isn't it a beautiful story !

cause we understand

Come Closer

Truth or dare

Because each other

About my mother

où le jour ou j'ai fait disparaître ma mère à jamais ou pour un certain moment du moins. J'ai une mère qui n'ose pas me regarder. C'est très étrange et assez déroutant. Parfois je me demande si je suis laide au point qu'elle est incapable de me voir. C'est moi dorénavant qui la fait disparaître de ma vue.

to love

to repent

To dream

La quête de l'absolu

Everybody is somebody

To be unique

I truly think that a great man stands above the rest, setting himself out of the crowd to live on his own standards, projecting into the world his unique and independent mind.

Pursuit of happiness

Shabbat shalom

The meaning of life why am I on earth have been the underlined questions of my existence. To be good would be one answer, to be a good mother would be another. Is it as simple as that ?

To be a good jew that's a touch more complicated. It's shabbat and I'm writing, using the computer I even made some tea to help me sleep since I'm awake and it's 4 in the morning... All things a good jew shouldn't be doing. What is it to be a good jew. Hillel said the heart of the torah is don't do to others what you wouldn't want them to do to you, the rest he continued is commentary. To acknowledge shabbat the fact that g-d rested on the 7th day, do I have to acknowledge it by my actions. Or do I acknowledge shabbat simply because I'm aware of it.

Shabbat shalom

Bla Bla Bli Bla Bla Bla, talk talk talk

I want to receive

I'm at a new point in my life where I want to receive, Enough giving, it's allright to receive. I don't mean receiving stuff I mean receiving at large. I have the propency to give right away everything, without the person even asking, throwing it at his face and opening my heart at large. I'm the mother Theresa of relationship... Enough. I'm allowed to receive, I'm good enough to receive. I'm worth it. Today this is my new beginning. Enough with the takers hello the givers !